Lost?

My words permute in my head and they don't make sense
Older days are put up front i guess i need a change
But to the end of this tunnel what turn i can expect?
Is it a choice or this freedom i seek is just a pretext?

Miracle Awaits

Rust in time my capacity to build
Capacity to build the words that fill
Words that fill the void between hearts
Between the hearts of long loving souls.

Rust in time the meaning of relationships
Relationships that were wonder once
Once upon a time when they were young
Young and blooming with fragrance of love.

Rust like the iron on the roof
Vulnerable to rain and heat and aloof
Yielding slowly layers of shields
Finally giving up all within.

Rust in hopes my determination to change
To change the person with unspoken world
The world losing the grip from sense
Sense that the world comprehends.

On its way the miracle awaits
Awaits to alloy the metal and change
Change to strengthen the assumed identity
And foster the latent electricity.

Circles

I live in circles
They rule my life
Projected and distorted
Thoughts encircled in time
God says "Bless you!"
"Man you get a globe!"
But far behind or ahead
All i see are loops and holes
They light my nights
They animate my sight
Be bigger or smaller all
Wonder they carry with them
And with every penny i earn
Circles make me more sense.

Violent Drug

Violent drug
Swallowed me up
All the roads
Ended dead
All the skies
Were just on bed
My life's beckoning
To hold the breaths
But
Violent drug
Wasted me away
And all of mine
Tranced to death
Begging to have
Another life
Aftermath the
Violent drug...

P.S.-Based on the life of some people i have known.

Rise

In the winds of vicinity
I lost the essence i was
Building empires of you in me
Proved to be a tremendous task
But i fought for you large and hard
And let me prolong my evolution
Before i reached the point
Where i would find no identification

The war of decades is over now
And i am defeated at last
I see my remains lying in the past
Today i am so not, what i once was
But i grab the last of my hands
In the hopes of a Columbus sail
Now free of you on this land
Am, me with mine, to rise again.

Roads

Roads, long roads into the sky
longing for the meaning of life?
Across the continents
across the oceans
through the paradise
roads of desire all over the skies

Witnessing the wars
Zimbabwean homicides
people killing each other
naming Allah, Hindu, and Christ
still, on shiny cars, over them we drive
there are roads all over our lives.

Don’t try to fool me
I know the flesh you thrive
don’t bring me this hatred
I have had enough from your eye
Paradigms you have lived in
Are delusions of your life
once free, I know, we will survive.