Roads

Roads, long roads into the sky
longing for the meaning of life?
Across the continents
across the oceans
through the paradise
roads of desire all over the skies

Witnessing the wars
Zimbabwean homicides
people killing each other
naming Allah, Hindu, and Christ
still, on shiny cars, over them we drive
there are roads all over our lives.

Don’t try to fool me
I know the flesh you thrive
don’t bring me this hatred
I have had enough from your eye
Paradigms you have lived in
Are delusions of your life
once free, I know, we will survive.

Our Lives

The ice melted in the jar
The rings of smoke went too far
The beer has a bitter taste
Feels all our lives are a waste

The music is too arousing
The feelings that are faded and weak
And all the dreams that we seek
Are out in open to be beaten and broken

Our horses are tied
Desires about to glide
The contradiction hurts
The pictures we painted went blurred

So the postevening goes for intoxication
To forget the pain we can't bear
To let echo the hymn just as we want to hear
In our lives in holes dreaming a day of no suffocation

Scattered all over the floor
Lie our stories, our cores
Calming down in the stupor of night
Fading away in dimming sight

Whether a walk down the street
Or moments shattered of grief
Wondering what makes our destiny
Value of our struggle in vanity

In this lull of the night
And the scorch of the day
We are dying together
on our mud, on this clay.

The Last Friend Of Mine

If this world starts to shake with tremors of apprehension
And all of a sudden crumbles under the weight of reasons
If i turn pale, grey, cold-a still of frozen expression
And if i break, put myselves down refusing to change with seasons
How long will you remember me?
Will you cry, will you laugh or will you just pass by?

Sometimes i wonder what am i worth?
Sometimes i wonder how it would have felt
The first breath after birth
They tell me not to get serious or weird but
Sometimes it doesn't seem to be a mirth
Sometimes i wonder if i'll ever be able to guess your girth

It's good it's blue, it's good it's you
I wish to walk the enlightened pace you do
But i wonder what after all i'll be running to?
I seem to be misled are you too? No.
Why some wishes are so easily washed away in roars?
Like the lines on the sands of shore.

You are the first and the last friend of mine
That's why i talk to you a lot
That's why i talk all that i feel and all i deal
Let's sit by the fireplace and have some wine
And in a classic conversation tell me all the secrets you've got
Tell me if it's all just illusion and pain or there is something real.

"You have got hidden tresures behind curtains of courage and painstaking."
"You have got life, the life you wish, life with purpose and awakening."
"You have got blissful love behind the walls of loss and misery."
"You have got journeys and voyages with breathtaking mysteries."
"But even when you are the first and the last friend of mine"
"I have to be fair it's not as easy as this fireplace and wine"

With the pleasure of wine the fire did extinguish with time
But after the long conversation my eyes did sparkle with shine
She wished me good luck and left
Now i knew her much better than i could have ever
What i have right now is all that i need to deserve and conquer
And yes i'll be remembered ever if i love her with love that could last forever!

I thank her everday
The first and the last friend of mine,
My love, my lover!

ABHAY
8.02.08